Sometimes life it drags you down and plays you like a fool, makes you feel so empty sometimes it can be so cruel. Its just a stage/part of your life...a bad part that is. For me... university life would be that. I'm a very anti social person. I go to uni and come back. In uni, I sit alone listening to lecture or tutorials. Other than that, I just lurk around the computer lab passing my time by.
I hate this stage. I could be studying now, but I end up blogging as I cant stand this crazy part of my life anymore. But I do wonder, how long will this stage of my life be? 4 years? 20 years? No one knows...I asked around about my situation. Some told me to move on. I dont know what do they mean by move on....but I'm just me....why must I move on when I am comfortable with my previous life ? What I can say is "All good things come to an end" Yeah, they do. They come immediatly, but also part quietly. When you finally realise that, it hurts like hell. But what am I to do? Life is just so fucked up sometimes.
Life is nothing without friends. Thats what I'm feeling now too. I have practically no friends now. I dont know if I will continue being like that...but I see people around me, they laugh, they smile, they chat, they tease and most of all, they socialise happily. I envy them so much as they could just make tonnes of friends in a month. For me? I'm just quiet at new environment. Love to be alone all the time. Usually, I dont get comfortable easily in new environments. Yeah, its hard to be in a new environment, especially a quiet one.
Studies isnt going good either. I cant get much what is being thought. Lectures is just a session of speech rather a session of education in this uni. Oh help... I havent found life yet, please help !
